Monday 30 December 2013

Pain is temporary, Pride is forever!

Every new year for the past 5 years, I have made a resolution to go to the gym and reduce my weight and sculpt my body into the mean machine I have dreamt it to be.  Never happened.  This year, I went ahead and took the resolution 2 months ahead of time and started working out towards the end of November. 

When I checked my weight and showed up at 114 kilos (which is 36 kilos above my ideal weight and 34 kilos above what I weighed a year back.) it scared the crap out of me.  Thus began this transformation journey.  I am a bit late in blogging this, and thus at the end of one month, despite the holiday foods, I have been able to loose 4 kilos and now weigh in at 110 Kilos.  Pic of me below:



I realized that there will never be a point in your life were it will be the perfect time to do a great thing.  If you keep waiting for that perfect time, that perfect opportunity, it is never going to happen. You have to create that perfect time, that perfect moment, that perfect opportunity, and bring about that perfect situation.  A lot of people become comfortable.  They stop growing, they stop wanting, in short they become satisfied.  People getting ready to go to jobs they don't like, jobs that make them sick.  You see when you are not trying to achieve your goal, you are literally committing spiritual suicide.

When you try to reach a goal, and it has you stretching out, reaching out and then eventually moving out of your comfort zone, you are going to discover some talents and skills you though you never had.  There are things that you think you never need to know, but sometimes knowing them can make the difference between life and death, someday you maybe saved by that knowledge.   Unless you attempt to do something beyond what you have already mastered you will never grow.  Each person has something in our lives that we looked at and talked ourselves out of it.  You cannot expect your family or friends or events around you to cultivate in you an attitude to be phenomenal and then achieve the thing you wrote off.  When you try to achieve what you wrote off, you become phenomenal in the eyes of the other average human beings.  If it was easy everybody would do it.  There are people right now working who don't want to work, they hate their jobs, but they keep getting up to do it.  Why??  Cause they are addicted to the monthly salary, the short term gain.  If any result takes a long time and some patience to reach, we all just crumble so easily.

Most people take their greatness, their ideas to the graveyard with them.  If you ask me, the wealthiest places in this world are the graveyards.  In there you will find inventions you were never exposed to, ideas, dreams that never became a reality.  Hopes and aspirations that were never acted upon.  Greatness is not one big thing done in a day, but a million small things done day after day after day.  You will never ever succeed in life if you succumb to your pain.  Instead learn to turn your pain into greatness, use your pain to push you from who you are and where you are to who who and where you want to be....no, rather need to be!  Learn to embrace your pain, your pain is a part of you now, a part of the transformation.  Pain is temporary, but pride...is forever!

I have decided that it is time to make my dream a reality.  Professionally I am spending 8 hours everyday making someone else dream a reality, maybe 2 hours a day is not too much to set aside to achieve mine. 

I am going to challenge myself.  I am going to push myself since I am tired of sitting down and accepting that I can't.  The biggest enemy I have to deal with is myself, and I have to overcome the enemy within.

I will keep updating this space every month regarding my progress, my workout routine and my diet.

Wish me luck!!

Friday 6 December 2013

In"cubicle"us

 After reading about the death of Nelson Mandela, I sat around reading the poem Invictus, in memory of this great man.  A great leader, and then for some reason I had to arbitrarily change that poem to my current state of affairs, so here goes.....

Here, in the middle of the dim neon's blaze
Bright as the sun from door to door,
I thank whatever god’s grace
For my unmatched patience and more .

In the fell clutch of client ridicule
I have not grimaced or screamed out aloud.
Under the observations so microscopic and critical
My ears are bloody, but not closed.

Beyond this conference call of client wrath and management tears
Looms but the Horror of my appraisals grade,
And yet after knocking back a few cold beers
The review sheets and appraiser shall find me unafraid.

It matters not how far I’ve fallen from grace,
How miserably small my yearly hike is as a whole.
I am the master of my tiny cubicle space:
I am the captain of my code weary soul.